i get out of bed

written by kylie tan

I get out of bed everyday, because of them.
I go to school every day to see them.
Their beautiful radiant smiles,
The gentle jokes.
Their happiness is contagious,
And I see myself smiling even though
I don't want to.

I get out of bed to see them everyday.
Meeting them was one of my best decisions.
And my happiest by far.
The smell of carbon on paper.
The intricate sketches they make.
The sound of K-pop in the background.

I get out of bed everyday to see them.
Meeting them was my happiest decision.
The smell of greasy McDonald's after
a long day at school.
The sound of chatter let me sit there quietly.
The feeling of being seen.
I haven't felt that in a long time.

I get out of bed everyday to see them,
To feel happy and wanted.
To feel I am needed.
To feel like no matter what,
They’re there and they want me
For just company.

I get out of bed everyday to see them.
Meeting them was a reason why
I never dropped out of school.
The reason why I still go to school
That feeling of being needed,
Being wanted for nothing more than company.
That's why I get out of bed

I get out of bed everyday to feel
Authentic. So I do not feel fake.
To not feel like I really need people’s opinions to be me.
I feel real, and I feel seen. That’s why I get out of bed

Kylie Tan is a 14 year old aspiring poet, author and playwright. She likes snuggling to a good book with a cup of coffee when she isn't writing on ghe topic of love and others